It's been a few months. I tend to have an on again/off again relationship with blogging. Eventually I'll get the whole 'commitment' thing down. That's always been a struggling point for me...or so I'm told. I'm back for now - though I'm not making promises that I'll be sticking around. If anyone out there is still reading this thing...wow. *Slow clap* ...That's some major commitment right there. You'll make some guy/lady very happy one day.
I feel like I've been running on empty for the past two months. Working here, writing there, preaching when I get a chance to, and filming when I need the money. ...By the way...if you're a budding filmmaker slash photographer out there, and you're wondering which route to travel: go photo. If you value your time and ever want to get paid properly for the amount of work put in, a thousand times go photo. Don't end up like me. Videography is for those few tortured souls who spend 18 hours straight on making a 3 minute video look PERFECT, only to have the client assume they could do it themselves if they had a camera and the latest copy of iMovie.
My most recent video binge? Springfield and the Ozarks 48 Hour Film Competition 2011. The name is pretty self explanatory: you get the short movie prompt, and you've got 48 hours to make your 5 minute film. The overachiever that I am believed I could handle this year staying up for the entire competition.While it's true that I finished the film, I still only have a kind of half-recollection of actually putting it all together. By the time I crossed the SATO48 finish line and turned in my two DVD copies, I went back home, sent a few partially coherent text messages to a female, then collapsed onto my bed for the first time in 76 hours. The walls were shaking and everything I ate had no taste that day. But was it all worth it in my slightly insane head? You'd better believe it. I live for adventures like that. Would I do it again? Give me a month or two to recover, but sure.
So the question is, if the constant and endless work takes so much out of me at the end of the day, why keep doing it? If I'm going to be hitting the E every now and then doing things anyone else would consider stressful, why put myself though it? ...Who knows? Maybe I just like the fast pace...the feeling of actually doing something with the time I've been given. Or maybe I'm just trying to distract myself so I don't have to think about other things that hurt.
I'm spending a lot of time with Lance these days...doing...whatever it is that he and I do when we're together. Moping? Gaming? Dreaming? Shooting each other's ideas in the face? Who knows? It sure does feel comfortable, though. I'm spending a lot less time with someone else... I think it's what they want, and it tears me to shreds, but when you've given 100% towards someone and they just say 'no', then you've pretty much run out of options. Time heals all wounds, right?
I'll get some more video blogs up soon...but right now I need some time to fill up on fuel.
Eventually I'll get the whole 'commitment' thing down. That's always been a struggling point for me...
I feel like I've been running on empty for the past two months. Working here, writing there, preaching when I get a chance to, and filming when I need the money. ...By the way...if you're a budding filmmaker slash photographer out there, and you're wondering which route to travel: go photo. If you value your time and ever want to get paid properly for the amount of work put in, a thousand times go photo. Don't end up like me. Videography is for those few tortured souls who spend 18 hours straight on making a 3 minute video look PERFECT, only to have the client assume they could do it themselves if they had a camera and the latest copy of iMovie.
My most recent video binge? Springfield and the Ozarks 48 Hour Film Competition 2011. The name is pretty self explanatory: you get the short movie prompt, and you've got 48 hours to make your 5 minute film. The overachiever that I am believed I could handle this year staying up for the entire competition.While it's true that I finished the film, I still only have a kind of half-recollection of actually putting it all together. By the time I crossed the SATO48 finish line and turned in my two DVD copies, I went back home, sent a few partially coherent text messages to a female, then collapsed onto my bed for the first time in 76 hours. The walls were shaking and everything I ate had no taste that day. But was it all worth it in my slightly insane head? You'd better believe it. I live for adventures like that. Would I do it again? Give me a month or two to recover, but sure.
So the question is, if the constant and endless work takes so much out of me at the end of the day, why keep doing it? If I'm going to be hitting the E every now and then doing things anyone else would consider stressful, why put myself though it? ...Who knows? Maybe I just like the fast pace...the feeling of actually doing something with the time I've been given. Or maybe I'm just trying to distract myself so I don't have to think about other things that hurt.
I've got a long way to go if I want to meet my goals for this year...but I'm going to do it. Failure isn't an option these days. I'm not one to give anything less than 100% towards life. But...man...it just gets hard sometimes. I'll make it through. Don't give up on me just yet...I've always got a surprise up my sleeve.
I'm spending a lot of time with Lance these days...doing...whatever it is that he and I do when we're together. Moping? Gaming? Dreaming? Shooting each other's ideas in the face? Who knows? It sure does feel comfortable, though. I'm spending a lot less time with someone else... I think it's what they want, and it tears me to shreds, but when you've given 100% towards someone and they just say 'no', then you've pretty much run out of options. Time heals all wounds, right?
I'll get some more video blogs up soon...but right now I need some time to fill up on fuel.
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